“And I tell you, everyone who acknowledges me before men, the Son of Man also will acknowledge before the angels of God, but the one who denies me before men will be denied before the angels of God.” (Luke 12:8-9)
These verses sting a bit because they cause me to remember the times I avoided conversations about Jesus. I don’t think I have ever denied him, as in actually saying, “I’m not a Christian” or “I don’t believe in Jesus.” But I have certainly avoided talking about Jesus in a variety of settings and for a variety of reasons.
I said these verses sting a bit because I feel guilty for the aforementioned avoidance. But the context of these verses escalates the sting. Here, Jesus is preparing his disciples for persecution that may come their way. Here is how Jesus describes the persecution: “And when they bring you before the synagogues and the rulers and the authorities, do not be anxious about how you should defend yourself or what you should say.” (Luke 12:11) There seems to be a serious risk, not just embarrassment.
My avoidances have never been in circumstances of risk of imprisonment, torture, or death. They have occurred when I thought others might think I was weird or dumb.
If Jesus expected his disciples to hold fast in circumstances of persecution – genuine persecution, not just awkward situations – how much more would he expect me to hold fast in my everyday, no-risk life? Yikes!
Verse 12 focuses on the underlying issue: In whom am I trusting in those awkward moments? I’m looking at me. How can I justify my beliefs? How can I explain my beliefs? How can I not look like a nerd? I was focused on myself. Jesus told his disciples to look to the Holy Spirit: “for the Holy Spirit will teach you in that very hour what you ought to say.” (12:12)
Father, please help me take my eyes off myself and look to you. Please forgive me for all the times I passively denied you. Please fill my heart with courage and steadfastness. Amen.